When insecurity grips us, our vision and judgment become clouded. We start looking at how far we still have to go (or how far we have fallen behind) instead of how far we have come.
Once again, insecurity had its grip on me and it gripped me hard. As much as I wanted to write and draw again, I kept thinking about how far I still had to go (and how far I had fallen behind my peers whenever I thought about going back to the corporate world).
Perfectionism made me believe that artists, entrepreneur, and real doers (the people I look up to) didn’t need motivation. But, I needed all the motivation that I could get.
One of the things I found motivating was tracking my progress.
Tracking our progress helps us focus on what we have done, instead of continually looking ahead to what we still have to do. It helps us appreciate our improvements, the steps we have taken, and our forward motion. It helps us to be grateful for the little blessings we have received in our journey thus far, instead of complaining for the difficult road still ahead. It helps in building hope and confidence with every accomplishment or tick on our checkboxes.
A tool that is helping me track my progress is the NeuYear Calendar. I saw it being offered by one of the authors I’m following. But since I wasn’t sure whether it ships here in the Philippines or not, I decided to create my own which you can download here for free. (If you can, please buy your calendar directly from NeuYear.)
This simple tool helps me track my progress. Starting a few days ago, I put a cross mark on every day that I was able to blog. Of course, you can also use it for planning. Because of my limited resources (we only have a printer that can print on regular-sized papers) and somewhat limited foresight, I only created a quarterly calendar. It is best printed on an A4-sized paper and posted on your wall or desk. You may also feel free to share it with your family, friends, and colleagues.
Progress builds upon progress. When we pursue progress consistently (instead of perfection), it will have a snowball effect on the things we are working on. It will even have a snowball effect on us — as creators, as artists, as entrepreneurs, as employees, as human beings.
Whenever you are feeling insecure or paralyzed by fear, think about your progress and how far you have come. Tracking your progress can help you with that.
P.S. During my down time, a lot of things has happened. My wife and I are expecting our first baby. Praise God! But, because of a condition (a weakened or incompetent cervix in medical terms), she had to be on bed rest in order for us to keep and protect our baby. Please pray for us and our baby. I had been quite busy taking care of my wife and doing the household chores for the past month. Oh, that’s in addition to my day job. Also, I studied basic web design and had a freelance project building seven websites. As a writer (and accountant), I never thought I would do web design for a living. I guess it’s never too late to reinvent yourself. (But, that’s for another blog post.) But, I’m back and I hope to be back for good. I “hope.”
P.P.S. I will also be launching a new website before 2018! (Another thing I had been working on during my down time.) Watch out for it.