An Old Dream, A New Mission

Today, I just want to share with you my realizations from attending last night's Feast in Legaspi, Makati. I also posted this on my personal and the blog's Facebook pages last night. I just wanted to share it here on the blog as well. If you have read my long post, I'm just copying it here. Thank you for being there.

I’m now beginning to understand why I haven’t had any breakthrough in my life, especially in my career and in business, for the past five years—right after I stepped out of college.

The first 26 years of my life has been full of blessings. And I thank God and my parents for giving us very comfortable lives. I never, and I mean never, experienced any lack in my life. I was always provided what I needed and even what I wanted. Until now, whenever my salary cannot keep up with my expenses, my parents are there to support me. Now, this post cannot fully express my gratitude to God and to my parents. God, thank You for all the blessings and for my life. Ma, Pa, thank you for working hard for us. I love you.

But, because I never felt any hunger, I also did not have any drive to succeed other than my own pride and ego. But being at the Feast tonight in Legaspi, God made me understand why I am in my "Rock Bottom" right now. My lack of breakthroughs in my life is His way of telling me that my own selfish dreams are not enough for me to succeed. After all, I’m already living a very comfortable life. I’m working only to be more comfortable. In addition, because I never felt any “hunger,” I never developed the character and habits I needed to succeed.

Right now, after 26 years of living a comfortable life, thanks to my parents, I’m ready to live my life to “comfort” others. I’m ready to dream not only for myself, but also for others. I’m ready to dream not because of my pride and ego, but because of love. I still have lots to learn, but knowing what I need to learn is already half the battle. Thank you Ma and Pa. I wouldn’t have dreamed this without you. Thank you for working hard for us and giving us very easy lives. You planted this dream in my heart as well. Thank you.

God, through the Feast tonight, woke up a dream that really never left my heart since 2010—build houses and communities and create opportunities for others a la Gawad Kalinga. Now, I’m clear as to what I want to achieve in my life—build communities and give opportunities. I may not be hungry, but others are.

Now, I declare to all my friends and all the blog readers, this very day, the 26th day of March in the year 2015, that I will give 10% of what I earn from the blog to God through the Feast and 41% to building houses and communities. Join me in this cause and revolution.

(Update: One fateful day in September, God asked me not only to give 51% of the subscriptions away. He asked me to give away one hundred percent. Read more about it here.)

I’m declaring this bold and crazy dream also to be accountable to the world! But if I fail in this lifetime, I assure you that I’m giving more than my 100% to achieve it.

Now, it will take even longer for me to leave my day job, to provide for my own future family (I’m sorry future wife; I’m really crazy), and to buy the things I want, but I’m done living a comfortable life. I also will work harder at my day job because God gave me this opportunity not only to feed myself, but also others.

Lastly, I want to thank our Builder at The Feast Makati Salcedo, to the person who shared her story tonight, and everyone at The Feast for inspiring me to be clearer and more courageous with my bold dream. Thank you for inspiring me to be used by God more, to love God above all, and to serve more. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

God, thank You and, someday, I will learn to love You above all else—myself, my blog, my dreams, my finances, my service, my co-servants, and even my family. Lead me to the right people who will support me, mentor me, teach me, and stretch me to build houses and communities. I love You, Lord. Thank You. Thank You. Thank You.