I have some big dreams for myself.
Here, let me share some of them with you:
I look at this image on my phone every morning to remind myself of who I want to become.
I want to become a better writer, a better blogger, a published author, and a more successful entrepreneur. (I started a new business last week! I’m so excited about it!)
But every morning, I dread going to the office and do my day job. After all, becoming a better employee or being promoted is not one of my dreams!
There’s a huge gap between what I do now and what I dream of doing. I’m just in my day job to pay the bills while I’m still working on my bigger dreams. (By the way, if you don’t like where you are or what you are doing right now, do something about. But if you have bills you need to pay, then do something you love on the side first. Unless, of course, you love taking huge risks.)
The worse part is there are days when I feel like I “hate” myself for still being stuck doing what I don’t like to do. Then, I lose a bit of confidence in myself and get even more stuck. When you’re feeling bad about yourself, it’s hard to do something well. In my case, it’s difficult to write and to blog.
Last week, I simply stared at my laptop and aimlessly browsed the internet for more than three hours! After realizing that I wasted a lot of time, I hated myself even more!
Okay, maybe hate is too strong a word, but I really felt bad about myself.
I would really love to become the blogger, the writer, the author, and the entrepreneur that I want to be. But, I didn’t like who I was or what I did. So, I got stuck for another hour. No amount of self-motivation, inspirational talks, and self-help books could lift me up.
So, I went to church. After half an hour of looking at an image of the crucified Jesus and praying, I finally figured something out! I realized that I didn’t love myself unconditionally.
I would love myself only when I become the person that I want to be — the popular blogger, the very good writer, the published author, and the entrepreneur who finally made it!
I realized that I should love myself more and enjoy being who I am right now! I should like myself without any conditions.
When I had that Eureka! moment, I was finally free from all the heaviness I was feeling that day. Then, I got unstuck and was able to write…wait for it… three blog posts, two subheadings of my new free guide (Wait for it sometime in February!), and a few hundred words more for the website’s redesign! I was able to inch closer to my dreams! I was able to take a step forward to becoming the person that I want to be!
When you love yourself now, you’ll be able to do things you can never imagine!
How about you? What are your dreams? Who do you want to become? But, do you love yourself right now in spite of your dreams not yet coming into fruition?
Image: Super Awesome