Embracing the Waiting

Every Sunday, I take a break from writing about doing work that matters. Instead, I write about my imperfect understanding of God’s perfect love as my personal mission to spread His word and His love and to make a difference. You can read more Mission posts here.

I’m terrible at waiting.

Last Tuesday, I sent out an application for an online work. After sending my application, I received an email auto-response that they’ll review my application and it might take weeks for them to get back to me.

Every two to three hours, I would check my inbox to check the status of my application. Even when I’m writing, I would just grab my phone, most of the time, by instinct, and check my email and lose all my momentum. Haven’t they already told me that it might take them weeks? I’m just not good at waiting.

It’s not because I’m impatient. It’s just that I’m not comfortable with not having control of the outcome. I’m not comfortable living with any uncertainty.

But, life is a waiting game.

We wait for hours to get to a two-minute ride at the amusement park.

We wait for hours in the “not deadly” Manila traffic to get to work.

We wait for years to graduate from school.

We wait for years to be promoted.

We wait for years for our children to grow up.

We wait for years to retire and finally live the lives we want.

We wait for the right person to come into our lives.

We wait for years for our breakthrough.

Most of the time, they are beyond our control. There are so many uncertainties that can derail our plans (but most of the time redirect us to something better).

All we can do is to embrace the waiting and the uncertainties. All we can do is to let life unfold. Living is more peaceful that way. Most of the wonderful things in life feel serendipitous.

But, that doesn’t mean you just kick back and relax and not set any goals. You have to set ambitions, but not become ambitious. In every moment, you have to be the best version of yourself. When life unfolds, ask yourself, “What would my higher, ideal self deal with this? What can I learn from this? What are the things I can do which are within my control?”

I no longer believe in “hustling while you wait.” Hustling feels like burning yourself out just to force yourself to do something or achieve something while you’re waiting. But, while you’re waiting, work on becoming the best version of yourself. Whatever the outcome, whatever life throws at you, no matter how life unfolds, you’re higher self will be able to take it. Only then can you embrace the waiting and the uncertainty.

Besides, when you become the best version of yourself, you will attract the work that you want to do, the clients you want to work with, the person you want to be with, and the life you want to live. Just have faith despite the trials and the uncertainties. All things will work out for good.

“For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” — Jeremiah 29:11