At midnight, before I went to sleep, I prayed to God and told Him, “Father, please give me purpose.”
I’ve regained my momentum of blogging everyday, but there are still times when I struggle with my belief that I’ll make it as a blogger. Sometimes, the fear, discouragement, and insecurity get overwhelming that I begin to question the purpose of the blog.
After praying, I turned on the TV and the movie being shown was Evan Almighty, starring Steve Carell. He never fails to make me laugh.
Spoiler alert: If you haven’t seen this movie yet and you plan to watch it, please don’t read any further. But, if it’s okay for you to be spoiled, please read on.
There was a part when Evan, played by Steve Carell, was left by his wife and kids. Then, God, played by Morgan Freeman, spoke to his wife and told her how God answers prayers. Here are a few lines from the movie:
“Let me ask you something. If someone prays for patience, you think God gives them patience? Or does he give them the opportunity to be patient? If they pray for courage, does God give them courage, or does he give them opportunities to be courageous? If someone prayed for their family to be closer, you think God zaps them with warm, fuzzy feelings? Or does he give them opportunities to love each other?”
These past few weeks, I’ve really been struggling with purpose. That’s why most of my recent blog posts are about purpose. I’m the first person my blog helps after all.
But, last night, I realized that purpose is not something that God suddenly puts in your head and your heart. Purpose is something you need to decide on each day and in every moment. I can write blog posts and draw illustrations. And they can be just that—blog posts and illustrations. But, if I do them with the purpose of helping others, then they become meaningful. They have the capacity to change the world in their little ways. The same goes with my day job.
And I thank God for my blog and my day job. They are opportunities for me to live with purpose.
What are you praying for? Whatever it is, God is giving you an opportunity to do it. Will you make the most of it?