… you have to know whom you want to become. And commit.
But, do you even know whom you want to become?
Here’s a story of why I kept missing posts during the past six months or so:
Long story short, it wasn’t clear to me whom I wanted to become.
Sure, I knew I wanted to become a full-time writer and blogger. But, at the back of my mind, I was always thinking about other and (quite possibly) better paying opportunities as a Certified Public Accountant (CPA).
Right now, I do freelance work as a writer. But, I’m still thousands of pesos off my previous salary as an accountant-slash-financial analyst.
Every time my income was just enough to pay my bills, every time I looked at social media and saw my peers, former colleagues, and classmates working overseas, I would always look for work opportunities related to finance and accounting.
Those thoughts of going back to employment and being paid better as an accountant were holding me back from moving forward as a writer. Those thoughts were not only shifting my focus away from being a better writer, they were also taking my time and my energy off writing.
During the past few weeks that I was on a writing hiatus (again), I was praying, discerning, and wrestling with God until it finally became clear to me whom I wanted to become.
I am a writer and an artist. I already am. But, I want to become the best writer and artist that I can be. I want to make a difference with my art and my writing. I want to have a direct impact on my readers’ lives. I want to write for God.
That’s why starting today, I commit to being a better writer and artist.
Starting today, I’m leaving everything behind—all my what ifs and what it could have beens as a CPA.
Starting today, I’m throwing away my way out of being an accountant. No more searching or thinking about opportunities related to finance and accounting. I’m going to commit.
Starting today, I’m trusting in myself, in my abilities, and my God that I can be the best writer and artist that I can be. I’m going to believe with all my heart and my strength that I can be who I want to become.
Right now, maybe you’re feeling stuck in your career or in life. Maybe you also have to do two things: know whom you want to become and commit to becoming that person.
Maybe you finally have to stop holding on in order to finally move forward.
As I end this post, I’m also relaunching my blog, Charging the Lines. If you look at my blog’s new subtitle and About page, you can see the little changes I’ve made to reflect who I truly am, what the blog is about, and the difference that I want to make.
I tweaked the blog a little bit to reflect the lessons that I learned, especially the discoveries I’ve made about myself. (I have the Lord to thank for those discoveries.)
As I move forward, there will be no more pretensions about trying to become who I am not. There will only be who I am and whom I want to become.
Thank you for being with me in this journey. Let’s journey together to become whom God created us to be.
The best is yet to come.