I wish I could tell you that whenever I’m feeling down, I would just shake off the negative things and immediately feel better. Most of the time, I can’t. I can motivate others, but I really find it hard to motivate myself! It’s like being a doctor who cannot cure himself.
I have to listen to an encouraging talk, go to mass, read an inspiring book, or lock myself in my room to pray, praise, and worship God.
But, there’s also one more thing I love doing from time to time that really helps me get out of my slump and shake of all the negative thoughts and feelings:
Going back to school.
Okay, I’m not enrolled in a master’s degree or any graduate studies. I literally go back to my old school.
I love walking around the campus, taking deep breaths, being surrounded by trees, and just sitting on a bench or under a tree and watching people play in the sunken garden. I also hearing mass in the chapel inside the campus.
Time really stops whenever I’m in the campus.
But, what really lifts me up whenever I’m feeling bad about myself is that being back reminds me of how I worked really hard to be admitted in and to graduate from the university. It reminds me of how I studied like the world was going to end just to survive four, five, six, and even sever-hour examinations.
Being back helps me gain some strength and confidence from the past. But more importantly, it reminds me of how I should dream and how I should live my life.
It reminds me of the day when I was still a wide-eyed 17-year old freshman, walking inside the campus in his shorts, slippers, and unruly hair. It reminds me of that kid who dreamt big and thought everything was possible. He didn’t think of what was practical or realistic. He only thought about how wonderful life was and how possible everything was.
I never would have thought that I knew more about life back then than now.
I guess somewhere along the way, I forgot how to live that’s why I always have to go back to where everything started, to where I experienced life.
How about you? Where is the place you first thought everything was possible? Where is the place you first experienced how to live?