Can I confess something?
My blog is not that big in terms of readership. A small blog is usually visited by 10,000-plus readers every day. An average blog has 100,000-plus visits per day. A popular blog has more than 1,000,000 readers every day!
My blog, this blog, has an average of...
... wait for it...
... 30 visitors per day!
There are days when the blog gets read by 200, 300, or even 500 readers. But, just like yesterday, there are days when my blog is read by 10 people (myself included).
Compared to the popular blogs I'm following, my blog's size is microscopic.
If you're in my position, wouldn't you feel discouraged by the results as well?
At times, I even feel like I'm just fooling myself. Whenever people ask about how my blog is doing, I would sometimes feel small and even ashamed. If only they knew how well my blog really is doing. Well, now they know.
There are times when I even feel like I'm writing for an audience of one -- myself.
Yes, being in this position stirs up some doubt. But to be honest, I somehow enjoy it because I get to ask myself, "Why am I still doing this?"
It reminds me that more than creating a successful blog, I started this because I felt like there's something I need to say: that we can live the lives we want, not just the life other people expect us to live and that we can make a difference in the world. I also started this to see if writing is indeed my passion, to experiment, and to try out something new. Most importantly, I started this because I simply liked writing.
I don't know whether this blog will succeed in the future or not. I hope and pray that it does. Right now, I may already be looking silly and foolish in the eyes of others by writing for an audience of none. In my eyes own eyes, I already do!
But, I guess this is how all big dreams are. It starts with the dream, then with looking silly, crazy, and foolish, followed by persistence and perseverance despite the doubts and the ridicule, until the day comes when the results can speak for themselves.
Didn't all the crazy dreamers go through the same silliness, foolishness, and even ridicule?
Yes, I've learned not to care whether I look foolish or not. But, that's okay. I guess that's the price I have to pay for dreaming big.
How about you? Do you want to achieve your big dreams? Don't be afraid to be foolish and look foolish in other people's eyes. Express yourself more and get your voice out there...even if it will be heard only by an audience of one -- yourself.
Most importantly, keep moving forward despite the craziness.
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