... is not making a decision at all.
Since I started drawing comic strips, I fell in love with the process that I thought that’s what I really wanted to do. For weeks, I researched and planned about how I can make a career out of making comic strips. It was exciting, until the disillusionment came.
I realized that while making comic strips is fun for me, I still love writing more. Writing allows me to share my thoughts on the issues we are facing. Other artists probably can also do this through drawing, but right now, I still can’t. At least, not yet. And making comic strips takes a lot of my time away from writing and reading books which inspire me to write. I simply cannot do both.
So, I was faced with a difficult decision. To move forward, I had to decide and choose among four options:
- Quit drawing and blog every day.
- Continue drawing simple illustrations (which are not comic strips) and blogging every day.
- Draw comic strips twice a week and stop blogging.
- Quit everything and just focus on my day job. (Because I was also feeling discouraged at that time.)
I chose none of the above and remained stuck for more than a month.
In hindsight, not making a decision is the worst decision of all. Because for a month, the aspect of my life called work failed to move forward — my dream of becoming a full-time blogger, my new dream of becoming a comic book artist, and even my day job as I was constantly day dreaming.
Today, I’m (finally) making a decision. Maybe my dream of becoming a comic book artist can wait. And I know that quitting blogging is like letting a huge part of me die. Yet, I still want to draw simple illustrations because it adds life to my writings.
Today, I am choosing Option #2: I am choosing to continue drawing simple illustrations and blogging every day.
After more than a month of hiatus, I also feel like I’m starting again and starting somewhere. I know I will not be able to blog every day like how I always wanted to. I have come to embrace the fact that I still need to do some freelance writing work to pay my bills, save for our wedding and our future family, and support my dream of becoming a full-time blogger and artist. And when life gets too busy, my blog will probably be the first to get bumped off my priority list. Still, blogging inconsistently is better than not blogging at all.
But, I certainly will try my best not to let this happen.
How about you? What decision have you been putting off for a long while now? Be careful of being stuck and remaining stuck.
P.S. Hello again and welcome back to this blog. Thank you for still being there. Shall we continue our journey?
P.P.S. Here is a sample of a comic strip I drew last month.